Life is feeling less fragmented, like each piece is fitting neatly together. || YAY FOR EMPLOYMENT.

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I probably should be writing up some of the 1000's of words I have left to go on my assignments, but I really cannot focus right now. I'm so happy, relieved and content I feel I needed to share and get it off my chest.

So, last Monday I had an interview for a job. From the start, I was a little overwhelmed by it all. I had an on the spot telephone interview. I was eating breakfast at the time and was caught totally of guard. Somehow though,  I was told I was confident (if only they knew!) and well spoken and they wanted to invite me for an interview. Excellent!

Except this is where things got tricky. I was home for Easter in London. The interview was in Newcastle. I took the gamble, got last minute tickets and headed up for the interview. I felt so nervous the morning of the interview and had to spent the whole journey to said interview stopping myself panicing. Not the kind of 'worry' panic that is normal, but the type of panic that stops your breathing normally.

Somehow I held my shit together and got through the interview. I left feeling so deflated though, as I was convinced I'd messed up and not got the job. I sat in bed afterwards eating my body weight in greggs food and crying. Classy I know.

Over a week had passed so I assumed they'd not be wanting silly old me anymore. However, this morning I got the call I had been longing for! I got the job. The amount of relief and happiness i'm feeling is unreal. I can't really believe I've gone and done it. I assumed no one would ever employ me! After such a terrible year last year, I didn't really think things were ever going to get better. I felt I was in some horrid dark pit that I was never going to get out of. No matter how many pep talks I had from my housemates or Craig, Ultimately I was the only one who could get myself out of the situation. 

Over the last few months, everything has started to turn around. I've managed to start going back to university, i've passed assignments, began doing all the things I love again, started and fallen in love with blogging. Also, i've now got a job!

It is just the cherry on top of all the other things I have to look forward to in the next few months. Blogger meet ups, gigs, finishing university, graduation, and moving house!

I finally feel I have a light shinning brightly to get me through all the exam and assigment stress I have. I've got a long way to go yet, both academically and emotionally, but I finally feel i'm back on track and that everything is coming together. Each thing I have less to worry about, makes me realise how liberating it is to just be happy. 

Most of all, I don't think I could have got to this point without the love and support of some very important people. If it wasn't for bringing me food on the days where I couldn't bare to leave the house, not getting mad when I was clearly being rather challenging and most of all for not giving up on me. I probably would have given up on myself long ago had they not been there.

The past year has been full of little reminders that I should have faith and believe in myself. Hiding away from opportunities would never get me where it is I want to be, and I really hope I can build up my confidence and start chasing all the dreams, hopes and ambitions I have for the rest of the year.

Hope everyone else is having a merry week, but remember, even if you're not. Things can, and will get better.

7 comments on "Life is feeling less fragmented, like each piece is fitting neatly together. || YAY FOR EMPLOYMENT."
  1. Congratulations on the job!! And so happy you're feeling like everything is coming together, thats such great feeling. :D

    Emma x
    Writing Essays With Wine

  2. Congrats on the job!! Well done! :) Hope things continue to get better and better x

  3. Congratulations on the job hun. So pleased for you. Thanks for linking up to the #binkylinky

  4. Yay wel done on the new job! Sometimes life just works to bring you what you need just at the right time #binkylinky


  5. That's brilliant news! Congratulations. I'm so pleased things are picking up xx
    Thanks for linking up with #BinkyLinky

  6. Friends and family are awesome. They stay by your side even when you seemed to be pushing them (mostly me I pushed them) away. Love your post. Getting your shizz together is the best thing ever. #binkylinky

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